The half marathon is only 2 1/2 months away and my body is not in the shape I expected it to be. All this training and I was hoping to be fabulously in shape and looking fantastic. Instead not only have I gained weight as I wrote in earlier posts, but I’ve broken out with acne. It is nothing compared to when I was a kid, but all that running and sweat has caused my face to wage war on my skin. I’m looking to find the best acne product but so far I’ve come up short. I think eventually my skin will get used to sweating, and as long as I can get a shower in right after a run I should be ok.
As much as I know I’m doing a good thing by participating in this marathon (raised over $2500 for cancer research yayy) I will still be relieved when it is over. I plan on joining a gym and focusing more on my core instead of running endurance. And maybe I won’t be so tired all the time. This running 15-20 miles a week is exhausting.

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My lease is up in January, but for me that month could not get here sooner. It feels like it’s already been a very long year as far as roommates are concerned. My roommate has been interesting to say the least. In some ways she’s a perfect roommate, because she’s never home. Since we moved in together in January, she has slept in the apartment maybe 2 weeks. The rest of her time is spent with her boyfriend. At first it was  a bummer because the whole reason I moved in with someone was for the company. I was fine living alone, but I wanted to save money, and I wanted someone to hang out with after work. Upon getting to know the roommate however, I immediately became relieved to know she wouldn’t be home much. The term polar opposites comes to mind when I think of her.

When the roommate is home, it’s in a flurry of agitation and slamming doors, followed by abrupt and somewhat rude conversation. I don’t think she means to be this way, it’s just who she is. Dyl Pickle noticed it right away, and can’t stand her either, and most of my friends don’t even like being in the same room. Just a sense of bad energy flows from her. Bleck. She is always complaining about something, and will usually have a mean comment to say about my dog. As if she didn’t know she’d be living with a dog when we moved in together. I really don’t understand people who don’t like pets. My dog is the most well behaved lil mutt too, and who couldn’t love his face? He’s precious. When she comes home, she glares at him, and practically kicks him if he goes in for a pet.

So when our lease is up, it will be a happy day. Unfortunately, she will be taking quite a bit of furniture with her when she goes, including the couch. Right now she owes me the money for the brand new fancy leather couch she just had to have. I don’t see why she didn’t just get a used one off craigslist. The way they make slipcovers now they can look brand new. Plus, she’s never home to use it. It doesn’t make any sense to me. When she goes, I’ll have to look for a roommate, and a new couch among other things. Still, that will feel like a vacation compared to dealing with her.

Ok, I know that I’ve vented about this before, but I am just so so frustrated. I know I have a notoriously bad memory but I don’t remember it ever being this hard to get into shape. I work out five days a week. Count em’, FIVE. That in itself is insanity. Next, add the fact that I’ve never eaten as healthy as I do now. I snack on fruits and veggies, and lunches of salads, dinners of chicken or fish with a starch and a vegetable, and rarely a light dessert of fruit or soy ice cream. And yet I’m still struggling to button my jeans?!? What the F@$K?? Sorry guys, I just plain don’t get it. I’m going to try to count my calories, on the off chance that I might actually be not eating enough calories and forcing my body to hoard its calories. I personally think I’m just a genetic freak who is skinnier when she drinks her weight in alcohol and eats French fries than when she diets and exercises.

So this working out thing has got me incredibly frustrated. It doesn’t seem to matter that I’m eating healthy, eating less, working out more, and yet somehow I’m FATTER?? Someone please explain to me how that works. Yeah yeah yeah muscle weighs more than fat. It’s not how much I weigh that I care about. I care that my jeans seem to be tighter and I don’t feel like I look as good. I will say I’m healthier than I have ever been, and I feel really good. Still, it is times like this I get tempted by diet pills or fad diets or magical potions promising a slimmer sexier me. Luckily my man is a great motivator and is constantly telling me how beautiful I am. If it weren’t for him I’d be very discouraged by now. We eat healthy together and work out and motivate each other. I think maybe this is my plateau and pretty soon I’m going to notice the inches coming off. Here’s to hoping!

I’ve got the I don’t wanna study for my Microsoft certified desktop support technician blues. Just the name alone makes me want to fall into a study induced coma. It’s frustrating, because I know if I gain more knowledge in the field I will be a more valuable employee. I know I need to get certified by microsoft, and cisco too if I want to get ahead in the IT world. I have used cisco systems, and I use Microsoft products every day, but I need the certificates to back it up. I can’t seem to get motivated to study, and you would the think the prospect of a raise would be enough. When I get home at the end of the day the last thing I want to do is crack open a book. Maybe I need to get to a coffee shop or someplace other than my house. Anyone have any suggestions on how to motivate myself to study?

We’ve been having some crazy schizophrenic weather lately. Just a few days ago the weather was unbearably hot. It was in the triple digits on Thursday! And now today it’s windy and slightly drizzling. It is making it difficult to figure out when to do my running for team in training. I’m getting frustrated with my apartment because I can’t just take nightly jogs around the complex because they have little to no outdoor lighting and it’s not safe. It’s frustrating because I don’t have a running buddy all the time and I could really use one.

It was too hot to go running last week, even at night, so I ended up doing laps in the pool. The pool is fun, but I find that I’m way more out of shape in the pool than I am running. Funny how for as tired as I get in the pool, I don’t seem sore like I get when I run. Why is that? It feels like my heart is working twice as hard but the results aren’t as noticeable. I think I need swim lessons or something because I end up splashing around and gasping for air. I look like I’m drowning or something, it’s pathetic. Anyone know of any hot guys that want to teach me to swim?

So I figured out why I have a case of the grumpies. I came down with this crazy flu bug where I’m super tired, achy all over, and I have this massive headache behind my eyes. I stayed home sick all day Wednesday, and I dragged my butt to work Thursday and today. I’m still feeling so tired, even after sleeping 9 hours each night. I feel like I could sleep all day and still be tired. I’m never like this! I always have a ton of energy and even after no sleep I’m raring to go. I need to get better soon because this is ridiculous. I’m 24 but my body feels about 50 years old…….zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. Sorry, dozed off for a bit there.

I’m not sure what my deal is. Maybe I’m not getting enough sleep. Maybe I’m spreading myself too thin, but for some reason I have a massive case of the grumpies. I don’t get it so much outside of work, but the second I get here, I’m just annoyed. My coworker has this charming habit of talking to herself but making sure I can hear her. Then she acts super sweet and will ask me for help. She’s quite obnoxious and normally I can ignore it. Lately though? I have been fighting the urge to throw things at her. I’ve been working out after work and that seems to help, but then I go back to work and I’m frustrated all over again. You know that lady from Office Space? The one that says, “Sounds like somebody has a case of the Mondays!” That’s HER. Groan.

There are friends in our lives that I like to call Dandruff Friends. These are the people that are the kind of flakey you want your pie crust to be. When they do finally make plans they get pissy if for some reason you have to cancel, even if you give them plenty of warning. I just have to say, to all my dandruff friends, enough. I’m getting head and shoulders and I’m so getting rid of you!!

I love my dog. Anyone who knows me knows I treat my dog like my child. He is my best friend. But, just like with a child, he can do things that drive me absolutely insane. The other day I took my little cousins and my dog Oscar to the park. Oscar went into puppy mode running around and barking like crazy. My 5 yr old cousin got scared and ran away, and of course Oscar chased him and thought it was a game. Needless to say, my lil cousin is now terrified of him.

And then there was last night. Oh boy. Last night he woke me up at 2am, 3am, and 4am to go to go outside and go to the bathroom. The poor fella is sick, so he had to do his business a bunch. While I’m grateful he didn’t leave doggie presents all over the apartment, I’m also understandably grumpy and annoyed. I do NOT like getting dragged out of bed into the cold three times in one night. The worst part is the little bugger is sick because he probably ate something he shouldn’t have. He is not on my good side this week. I swear that dog can make me so mad, but then I look at him and I can’t help but smile. I mean who can stay mad at this face?